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Propaganda Poster

2011-12-25T15:50:00.000+08:00

This is my WP. I only made it today. I planned on using Avenir or Gotham.

Then I realized I don't have Avenir, Gotham, Century Gothic, Avant Garde!

What a shame, art student. So I made one using http://www.keepcalm-o-matic.co.uk/

And yes, I love my desktop being icon-free and dock-free. Actually, anything-free.

In other news, Karate Kid is next on HBO

and Fantastic Mr. Fox is next on Star Movies.

I'm choosing Mr. Fox because Wes Anderson has a knack for typography.

Christmas Hoo-hah

2011-12-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

So I'm here in Starbucks, with a venti iced tea, a pack of blacks and earphones on. Is it time to come back? I don't think so. I'll be in Katipunan until the 22nd, the earliest. When I go home, I'll just be at home. Since Dad is not coming home for Christmas (neither did he come home for my birthday or will he come home for New Year's), I guess we'll all just be at home. I have all the time to waste online during the break but there would be nothing interesting to write about, since I'll be burning my ass off on the couch and in bed.

Christmas. Where do I even begin?

I change my mind. My heart's not ready to type my emotions. There are just too many. And I don't want to be a grinch. So for those who are already on break, I wish you have a great time with your family! And for me, I wish to have the heart and the energy to perform well on the remaining 0300-0900PM daily rehearsals left before Christmas. And also food.

Come On

2011-10-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

Robin: Why can’t you just say ‘Hey, Robin, let’s go get some sushi?’ It has to be a string quartet and Paris and flowers and chocolates and LET’S SPEND THE REST OF OUR LIVES TOGETHER.
Ted: Don’t you think we’re a little bit past sushi at this point? God, you are so terrified of anything real. It’s like you’re floating out in space. Touch the ground, Robin. Live in the world! Make a mistake! Make this mistake.

The Boston Drama

2011-09-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

This is the line, "Will you come back in a heartbeat?" from Typecast's The Boston Drama on a wooden surface. I did the design on the back of a notebook in high school, using a G-Tec 0.3. I did the digital work last April. Nothing special. Just a random post.

The Dark Side of the Moon

2011-09-19T23:07:00.001+08:00

Pink Floyd's The Dark Side of the Moon

"It's the first time in my life that I... I don't know.

Weird, huh? It has always been that I'm the one who knows - always and everything. It didn't matter what, when, where, how, why (and even how to feel). I always knew... And now, it's just... weird. It's so weird that I can't even come up with a cohesive paragraph on it. I'm really tempted to just use ellipses... And I hate ellipses.

I really... I just... I... don't know.

At the height of all, when people used to ask me what happened, by default I would answer, 'Hindi ko rin alam.' I decided that I would answer with that exact sentence. And I did so, each time... without even the slightest brain activity. But it's only now that I realized that I really, truly and honestly do not know."

***

That was my mind talking to you in the previous quoted paragraphs. It's quoted very accurately. And this time, I am not deleting this before publishing. I used to delete drafts like these. Now, I don't care. I think that's much worse than I don't know.

I saw Cameron Crowe's Almost Famous today, before going to bed. Penny Lane just got me. Right there.

Retrogression

2011-09-01T03:43:00.000+08:00

Deprive a man then of his dignity and you not only deprive him of his moral strength but you also make him useless even for those who wish to make use of him. Every creature in the universe has a weakness, a flaw: that of man is resentment; deprive him of it and he is a corpse. He who asks activity in a corpse will find only worms.

Words written by Jose Rizal in his continuacion of his Sobre la Indolencia de los Filipinos, in the August 31, 1890 edition of the La Solidaridad. Yes, I'm doing my History readings.

Everything's Gonna Be Alright

2011-07-13T12:22:00.003+08:00

Now, hush, little baby. Don't you cry.
Everything's gonna be alright.Stiffen that upper lip, little lady.I told you, Daddy's here to hold you through the night.

COA's Human Resources ExTeam

2011-06-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

This last photo is of Teox, the COA Chief-of-Staff,

who heads the Human Resources ExTeam.

Shot last June 17, Bellarmine Field.

It was late in the afternoon and rain clouds

were all over the place - together with

the drizzling - so the shoot was fast and dim.

Slow Down

2011-06-15T08:39:00.024+08:00

On another note, I finished creating the program that will organize my finances.
The amount the program computes and the cash in my wallet balances out perfectly!

BSB

2011-06-08T18:55:00.000+08:00

BSB: Brent, Santos and Bianca

Dad's growing greys now. Yes, his first name is Santos - Santos Bueno, Jr.

Kaliwete

2011-06-04T03:20:00.006+08:00

Making scale models for set designs for Pobreng Alindanaw.

Unrelated song - except maybe for the assumption

that left-handed people are the creative ones

because the right side of their brain is more active.

Skins 0310

2011-05-23T03:02:00.003+08:00

Typography by Bianca Bueno; Stock image from the web;

Click to view full size.

Photo Backlog 1

2011-05-10T11:18:00.003+08:00

Three RAW photos of ENTA PlevSem

Gah. Photo backlog is 500++. I die.

Cobwebs

2011-04-18T08:17:00.001+08:00

WIP of TBD

If you want to see how many guides I use when drafting,
go ahead and right-click the image.

Countdown

2011-04-05T19:41:00.004+08:00

Flood. There was flood all over. Even though the ducts are usually clogged and dry, it flooded that night.

It was the flood. She's been through a lot. More than you think you know, even if you think you know a lot. She's heard and shouted in a lot of fights, been kicked out of her own house, been thrown money to go away and so much more. But that does not mean she's not hurt. It really doesn't. And she's lost a lot. But another loss doesn't mean it's less significant. Marginal loss is constant. And it is constantly huge. That girl - she's tough, you know? But you broke her. I guess you deserve a Congratulations. Yes, a big fat Congratulations.

Flood, ducts, tears, eyes.

Immersed

2011-03-29T23:59:00.002+08:00

I just deleted a post that I made five minutes ago.

Actually, I didn't. I saved it as a draft. I don't think I'm ready to share that much to the world yet. Maybe it was even an impulse to write it. Will explain soon. TTFN.

Where Do I Go From Here

2011-03-26T16:51:00.004+08:00

Screw it. I'm buying a new drive. I'll pass by a mall before going home today. I don't care if my parents won't pay for it. I'll withdraw cash from my savings account. Faaaaaaccckkkkk. :|

Inbox # 001

2011-03-24T13:52:00.003+08:00

I received a tub of Gelatissimo gelato/Italian ice cream (flavors: creme brulee, nutella and cookies & cream) last Sunday. I also received a half-dozen box of Krispy Kreme (flavors: cookies & cream and Toberone) last Monday. Thank youuu, you two! HUUUGGG!

Sleep All Day

2011-03-21T00:45:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I dream of non-conformity.
Reality is not enough for me.
And yes, I'm hungry.

Every Direction Leads Me Away

2011-03-12T20:57:00.002+08:00

Here's something I found written as a draft in my Blogger. I wrote it on February 9, 2009, near midnight, but never published it. It was the time nearing the end of senior year, high school. I think now is a good time to publish it. And about yesterday's post... it was an off day for me. I can smile now. But I still have the same problems, though I can just smile and laugh about it now. :)

PS I think the video's not available anymore. You can just go search it in YouTube, the last act of One Tree Hill 0513.

***

I found myself watching this video in my iPod over and over since last night when I got it from YouTube. Everytime I get the time to use my iPod, I'd play this video (even in between volleyball games this afternoon) and each time it gets done, I'd play it again. And again. And again.

"All I want is to be home.
People I've loved - I have no regrets
- Some I remember, some I forget,
Some of them breathing, some of them dead.
And all I want is to be home."

Peyton: Make a wish and place it in your heart - anything you want - everything you want.
Lucas: Do you have it? Good. Now, believe it can come true. You'll never know where the next miracle gonna come from a smile - the next wish coming true.
Peyton: But if you believe that it's right around the corner and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it - to the certainty of it...
Brooke: ... you just might get the thing you're wishing for.
Nathan: The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it?
Haley: Good. Now, believe in it with all your heart.

[Home]

Coming Home

2011-03-11T10:26:00.009+08:00

I'm in a whirlwind of emotions right now. Stop. That's your caution tag right there. It's... It's... I don't know. I find it hard to explain so I just go on pressing buttons on this keyboard. So many things has happened to me in the past days. Some of them are just heartbreaking but some of them are quite awesome. Maybe they have bottled up into a very undesirable type of liquid. I know that we have to go through these things sometimes. But what bothers me is how to get up from this.

I used to be able to in just a snap of finger. I didn't have to talk and let it out out anyone. I used to have a lot of options on how I can survive. I had music, art, sports, history books, mythology books, codes, web design, graphic design, small gigs of indie bands, RPGs, TV, blockbuster movies, indie films, lots and lots of food, sneakers and a whole lot more. I just had to pick one and I can rise above. But now, it seems like nothing is enough. Not even combinations of these things are enough.

I used to be up there, where I can fall from great heights and hang on to rock and climb up in no time. Every time I fall, it was easy to get up. And I always do, on my own. Now, it seems like I'm getting tired. Maybe I'm tired of falling? Maybe I'm tired of climbing? Maybe now I need help? I don't know. Maybe I'm just plain tired. And disappointed.

Sometimes I get into thinking: What if I live alone for a while? What if I try everything to get back up there?

Heavy description starts here. You can skip and go right away to the last three paragraphs. Maybe it would be nice to live alone in a small unit with two small rooms, a balcony, a kitchen and a T&B. I wouldn't need a living room and a dining room. I wouldn't have much visitors and I always eat on my desk or on my bed anyway. I just need one room for a bed and a closet. And the other room would be for everything I do. The walls would have a really clean white color. It would have my lens vault, camera on the tripod, lights, backdrop, easel, sound system with iPod dock, TV, PS3, bookshelves, comfy couch and a desk with my imba printer, rims of bond paper, different types of papers, canisters of different colors of pens, holders with different kinds of pencils and erasers and pens, different sizes of rulers, my laptop, my terra, my sketchpad and my in-the-works-portfolio.

Maybe it would be nice to just wake up in the morning, cook an omelette, corned beef and bacon, watch the morning cartoons on the comfy couch while eating breakfast. When the morning special ends at 1030AM, I would take a bath and dress up even if I would just be staying at home. I'd play my iPod on my sound system, sit on my desk and do my work. I would have to choose:

What to do at home today?
a. paint/sketch
b. take photos
c. graphic design/illustration
d. code and/or design a website
e. design/lay-out a floor plan
f. search for beautiful photos
g. read history books/mythology books
h. Tumblr
e. download tons of music and movies

If I would have the money I would have little, since my only source of cash is by freelancing. and I'm in the mood, I would also have lots of options:

What to do outside of home today?
a. go to the mall
b. go to a gig of my friends' band
c. take photos
d. look for new camera equipment
e. spend the day in the bookstore, previewing books
f. do the groceries
g. eat in not-so-famous restaurants
h. go to Cubao X or The Collective and hang out with hipsters like thyself
i. go to museums

I would end the day cooking a nice dinner for myself, taking a bath, dress for bed, grab a book and read until I fall asleep. Or I could just Facebook/Tumblr until I fall asleep. I wouldn't have to worry about grades or deadlines or papers or meetings or schedules or issues or competition or expectations or rules. All that would get me worried would be money and creativity.

But when I think about it, my mind rebuts because it's completely the opposite of who I am. I'm someone who does not let problems interfere with anything. I'm the person who is bombarded with problems but comes in the room looking like it's a normal day, or even a better day. And now I'm thinking of giving all my time to fix my problems? But then of course, I'm not serious about the idea of being a bum (or freelancer in formal language). I would just fantasize on having the courage to do this but in the end, I would still have a norm-bound life, conforming to the expectations of society, family, friends and my own self. Even though I and most people know that I am as free as the free-est thing can be. (I can't decide what metaphor can be used as the free-est thing so whatever it is, it's up to you.) Something has changed. Definitely.

P.S.
Why did you post your true sentiments on the internet? But you don't show emotions! Maybe I can't tell this story to a person's face that's why I'm typing it here, where no one can see me and where no one can be so sure if I am telling the truth. Hey, maybe this is just me pretending to show emotions. Who knows? Only I do. *coughs*

Spoliarium

2011-03-10T12:11:00.002+08:00

"Ang lahat ng bagay ay gumuguhit na lang sa aking lalamunan."

Prom

2011-03-08T00:11:00.001+08:00

I've never experienced prom. :)

Happiness

2011-03-02T14:54:00.001+08:00

I had a long epic weekend. And I also spent a lot of money. Then I got really sick. But I'm still happy. ;)

I Wish I Could Skip Thursday Every Week

2011-02-23T18:16:00.001+08:00

Broken Hearted

2011-02-15T14:29:00.003+08:00

My Adobe Master Collection CS4 died yesterday. Happy Hearts' Day. :|

No Photoshop, Premiere, Soundbooth, Media Encoder
and SIXTEEN other applications for me. :(
(See 121 items of Adobe at the bottom of the Finder window)
I still have my Lightroom 3 though.

Bombita

2011-02-02T01:17:00.002+08:00

Will be uploading the album soon.

A Moon Hugs + Bites U

2011-01-30T23:35:00.004+08:00

Something About Us

2011-01-18T12:18:00.002+08:00

It is always a great feeling to know you are worth something to someone. It never fails to make you smile, knowing that people see your efforts and they think that you did/are doing/will do a great job. Knowing that the time and energy you spent did not go to waste, it's as if knowing that someone loves you back. I think we all need to feel that feeling at least even once in our lives. ;)

110510 to 110610 Wattah!

2011-01-03T23:24:00.001+08:00

Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want

2010-12-29T09:27:00.003+08:00

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TRY TO PROVE ME WRONG.

Especially when I try to prove myself right and all you've got coming out of your mouth is a petty argument that explains your authority over me. Does it really matter who you are? How much more if you're not right?

Moving On

2010-12-26T19:13:00.001+08:00

You'll never know until you try. Hay. :(

Ho Ho Hopefully

2010-12-24T23:53:00.003+08:00

...this holiday will make us believe that we're exactly where we're supposed to be.

Unreleased World War II videos, Mythbusters, Greek mythological creatures documentary.
Pizza, Charlie Chan, hot wings, cheese balls, Combos.
Semisweet red, grapes and cheese.
Friends marathon, good Wi-Fi, nth Christmas in Subic.

I finally remember how good it feels like to take a break. Merry Christmas. :)

Katy Perry

2010-12-12T21:00:00.004+08:00

Seventeen Forever

2010-12-07T13:01:00.002+08:00

Here's another of the annual birthday blog post.

Friends called me and sent me text messages, greeting me at 1200 midnight. I woke up that morning and went to mass. After the mass, my brother and I got some fishballs and kikiam. Then my parents gave me their gifts while we were on the way to Newport City. We went to eat in Red Crab in Resorts World. We watched Narnia and they drove me back to the dorm. I dropped off some stuff and then they drove me to Starbucks. I studied for my pol sci class and went back to the dorm around midnight. When I went back to the room, there was a huge box wrapped Build City gift wrapper. I looked at the card and it came from my parents. I opened it and saw the box of Lego! My room mates and I played with the Lego until two in the morning.

Happy day. :)

BB

2010-11-30T13:59:00.003+08:00

And this is how I choose to live my life - studying until one in the morning, giving first aid to a hyperventilating friend, riding an ambulance at two and staying in the hospital until four in the morning, continue the interrupted studying and finishing org work until class starts at nine in the morning. I haven't taken a bath and haven't gotten decent sleep. (Please don't judge me. Bleh.) I was asleep during the roll call in class. And I do all of these things with a smile on my face and a temper still as cold and soothing as the Sprite I'm drinking right now.

Keep calm and carry on. All I really have is time for others and none for myself - for friends, for family, for work. And I have always loved it this way.

BV #007

2010-11-28T23:49:00.001+08:00

NAKAKAINIS NA SOBRA :|

Dark Blue

2010-11-25T12:18:00.003+08:00

I already cut six times in the first three weeks of the semester. :| I swear I'll make up. I don't like being left behind, especially in math. I like my math-related classes though. I didn't think I would enjoy microeco. I thought I'd enjoy math eco more; well, because the title has the word 'math' in it. But it turns out, both have math and microeco is more challenging; that's why I enjoy it more. Aside from my math-related classes, I like my pol sci and my lit crit classes too. I just think I should have the guts to raise my hand, because I know the answer or I have more information to share but I'm just scared I'm wrong. But I don't quite enjoy my lit crit readings. Not only because they're long but because... Well, I guess just because they're long. But my pol sci readings are twice as much and I like reading them. I really do. It's like reading Harry Potter. People say may teacher is not A-able though. D: Oh well, at least I learn and enjoy at the same time. :)

***

Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
Well, I'm here with you.
I said the world could be burning
and burning down.

Kryptonite

2010-11-21T14:24:00.002+08:00

I feel like throwing my lungs up for the past four days. I know, gross. Plus, I'm nasal. Even more gross. (NOOO I CAN'T BE SICK I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO DO. :|) And I need something to make me feel better. No, not medicine but something else. Something that will make me feel good. Something that will make me feel so good, I will forget how stressful my life is. Something that despite making me forget the stress, I can still work efficiently.

I think I need something to inspire me.

Half of My Heart

2010-11-20T10:38:00.002+08:00

I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else, made a plan - stay the man who can only love himself.

You and I, We'll Be Young Forever

2010-11-13T22:00:00.003+08:00

Imma get your heart racing in my skin-tight jeans, be your teenage dream tonight. Let you put your hands on me, in my skin-tight jeans, be your teenage dream tonight.

Papercut

2010-11-10T14:27:00.003+08:00

There's A Light That Never Goes Out

2010-11-09T01:45:00.003+08:00

It must be really hard for the listeners to say good bye to a legend. But it is much harder for the DJs to sign off and play a last song for the last time. It's much harder to say good bye to what has become their home. I miss being a DJ, even though I only wen through it for a short time. It is just plain awful for the NU jocks; for they were not only jocks. Before they were jocks, they were listeners. That's why maybe it is twice as hard; especially to fixtures like Quark Henares and Gang Badoy who have made such huge differences.

Here's to the radio station that filled my room with music beyond greatness, the station that never failed when it comes to taste in music, the station that I grew up with. Last night, NU 107 has closed its studio, pulled the plug of the condensers and the mixers and the DJs played their last songs and had their last sign offs. And as roughly 4500 viewers were watching the livestream in the web site, as others were watching in Ustream, as a lot were listening to the radio and as thousands gathered in Ortigas to watch, cry, drink and bid farewell, I say thank you. Thank you, NU. You will be missed. Rock music would have never been the same without your twenty three years of existence. It has been a privilege to have experienced the last eight years of it. :)

Sa panaginip na lang pala kita maisasayaw.
- Ang Huling El Bimbo by Eraserheads,
last song aired on NU 107,
before midnight on November 7, 2010

*Evee's last song was There's A Light That Never Goes Out by The Smiths

The Irony of Life

2010-11-07T22:08:00.001+08:00

Hippopotomonstrosesquipedaliophobia is the fear of long words.

Do You Ever Feel Already Burried Deep?

2010-11-04T14:57:00.004+08:00

I'm blogging from Ena's MacBook, here in MVP 318. I just went through a day full of errands, events and activities. My day started at 0730AM and will end at 0900PM. Actually, I still have to meet up with friends at 0900PM because Billy is now home, fresh from Cali! I'm still not done with reserving venues for rehearsals of applicants' production. Miss Julie said I will have to come back tomorrow. I'm sorry for just throwing out random thoughts. I'm listening Firework by Katy Perry. I like how it's so different from the first few singles of Teenage Dream.

The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most

2010-10-31T02:52:00.004+08:00

I MISS YOU. When will we see each other again? :(

I want to draw something
that means something to someone.
You know, I want to draw blind faith
or a fading summer or just a moment of clarity.
It’s like when you go and you see
a really great band live for the first time, you know.
And nobody’s saying it but everybody’s thinking it:
"We have something to believe in again."
I want to draw that feeling.
But I can’t.
And if I can’t be great at it
then I don’t want to ruin it.
It’s too important to me.
- Peyton Sawyer

I hope my muse comes back to me. For several times, I've held pencils and pens and had nothing decent to draw. Are you punishing me for not choosing you? Come on. Come back, please? :(

C & E

2010-10-27T00:23:00.008+08:00

I Think of You and Let It Go

2010-10-23T01:57:00.005+08:00

Milk

2010-10-19T16:10:00.002+08:00

Ted: No. It's not an adventure. It's a mistake!
Lily: There are certain things in life where you know it's a mistake but you don't really know it's a mistake because the only way to really know it is a mistake is to make that mistake and look back and say, "Yup, that was a mistake". So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then you'll go your whole life not really knowing if something is a mistake or not. And damn it, I made no mistakes. I've done all of this: my life, my relationship, my career - mistakes-free. Does any of this make sense to you?
Ted: I don't know, you said 'mistake' a lot.

How I Met Your Mother 0121

I Think I'll Start It Over Where No One Knows My Name

2010-10-16T14:49:00.004+08:00

I finally came home. I miss this place. It's not much - might not even be enough - but I like it. I miss the things I used to do here. I miss the places where we ate. Those were places you can't find anywhere else. I miss the street food here. I miss the two McDo branches where my friends and I spend the day away, just talking. I miss McNoli's sandwiches in the afternoon and Joe Lugaw in the morning. I miss... why is it that I only miss food? :| HAHA I also miss the people here. They are people you can just text once and they'd go to your house or you'd go to theirs and spend the night over. I miss playing with my friends' little brothers and sisters, take care of them and just talk to them about Star Wars. I miss our dog, Stein! (who smells so bad right now :|)

Speaking of this place...

A few nights ago, I got to talk to someone I haven't seen for more than a year. It's always nice catching up with friends. But it would be better if there was no need to catch up - if you see or hear from each other often. It was a nice conversation, Dedge. It was good to know we ended up well after high school. :)

California

2010-10-04T17:38:00.007+08:00

We've been on the run,

driving in the sun
looking out for number one.
California, here we come,
right back where we started from.

Minsan, nakakapagod din.

[EDIT 101210]
Minsan, kailangan mo din ng tulong.
Minsan, kailangan mo din ng dadamay sa'yo.

~~PAGOD NA PAGOD NA AKO. :(~~

She'll Just Spread All That Smoke In Your Brain And You're Gonna Go Insane

2010-09-27T23:19:00.003+08:00

It gets you high. All that is wrong start to go away and disappear into the darkness. It makes you feel like everything's right, like nothing bad is going to happen, like there's nothing you can ever worry about and like there's no reason for you to take off that smile. For a while, it seems like life is perfect. Then that amazing feeling starts to wear off and all your fears start rushing in. All your worries start haunting you. And you start to wonder if it was good for you and if it was a right thing to do. It felt good for a while, but was it right? It felt good for a while, but it was only the high.

P.S. I'm not high right now. =))

[Party At 802]

Good Afternoon

2010-09-27T12:54:00.003+08:00

"Should I swallow my girlish pride?"
(Daisy, Freakshow)

Good Morning

2010-09-25T10:30:00.002+08:00

"Words may lie but kisses don't."
(Violet, Freakshow)

Alumni Homecoming

2010-09-20T18:58:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it takes one to understand one. I'm not depressed or anything but yeah, sayang. It doesn't have to be this way if only you could see through one.

Pixi Dust

2010-09-19T11:42:00.003+08:00

Don't you ever wonder how we got here?

Bye, Pilandok!

2010-09-12T19:12:00.006+08:00

Saan na ko pupunta pag break? Ano na gagawin ko at 0600 PM onwards? Kailan na ko makakain ulit ng porkchop? Sino na mga sasamahan ko sa smocket? Kailan na ko makakabalik ng QR? Kailan na ako makaka-suka shot? Kailan na ko matutulog nang late na hindi dahil sa schoolwork?

KAILAN KO NA ULIT MAKIKITA
SI SOPHIA AT SANG JEE? :(

Tayo na't magkaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiisa!

Come to Decide That the Things That I Tried Were In My Life Just to Get High On

2010-09-11T09:50:00.007+08:00

I'm just sitting on the bed. Two girls are sleeping beside me. Few compared to the usual number of five people sleeping on two joined beds. I woke up early today, at around 0800 AM. I woke up on my chest, near the edge of the bed, with my laptop in front and dSLR on the left. If I had been a rowdy sleeper, I'm pretty much sure my stuff would fall off the bed. Whew. I continued what I was doing last night - PP (short for post-processing). Then I got lazy so I'm just using raw photos. I woke up to the cool morning air and realized that I didn't have a blanket on me all night. Thus, colds again. Just like the other night, when I got colds in the morning because someone keeps on taking the blanket from me while sleeping. Anyway, this time the colds is heavier. Tissue-on-one-hand heavier. When I got lazy, I started to feel the silence of the morning, that which happens when everyone in the building is still sleeping. So I started to play music. Snow. Hey Oh. Red Hot Chili Peppers. And then, I got bored so I got the guitar and searched for chords.

I haven't done this in a really long time. Waking up to a Saturday morning with nothing to worry and just... chill. I usually wake up late on Saturday mornings to stress - stress from the fact that you have class in an hour and you haven't prepared yet, stress from last night's drinking session, stress from the shitload of school work you still have to do over the weekend and it's already Saturday. It feels good to wake up like this.

P.S. On the start writing this entry, I have a bran new wad of tissue. Now, the wad is almost running out. And the trash can is already beside my bed, ready to catch the trash. :| I hate colds.

Sunday Morning

2010-08-29T12:17:00.001+08:00

Sunday morning, rain is falling
Steal some covers, share some skin
And clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in

Club Can't Handle Me

2010-08-26T13:42:00.003+08:00

Someone stole my chocolates! I arrived at the dorm this Sunday night to find that my Cadbury was missing from our fridge.

[[aMp]] workshop by Nina Sandejas (must see!), NSTP forum, AVC training and Pilandok rehearsals on a Monday; Fil quiz scare and Pilandok opening night on a Tuesday; last elims game, one LT and one annoyingly tricky quiz on a Thursday; first semis game, two quizzes and two LTs on a Thursday; another theo quiz, [[aMp]] workshop by Inksurge (another must see!) and a Sanggu DC job defined my week. It's a great thing I even had time to...

sneeze!

Home

2010-08-20T16:16:00.000+08:00

I'm going

Secrets

2010-07-27T09:49:00.005+08:00

Me.

***

We watched The Sorcerer's Apprentice last Saturday. I love how Dave is such a physics geek 'cause I love physics, too! Just that, err, it doesn't love me. Anyway, I like his tesla coil project. I first heard of tesla coil from playing video games when I was eight. I never thought I'd hear those words again! And I've been getting the LSS from One Republic's Secrets. Yes, that's the song that Becky played on the radio, that Dave used to test his tesla coils, that Dave then used again to show Becky his tesla coil project while they're inside the cage. That's also the same song that's being played over and over throughout the whole movie.

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

It would be nice to make a mash up of this and Kings and Queens by 30 Seconds to Mars, yeah?

Skins #001

2010-07-26T02:11:00.006+08:00

Love Hayley Williams for her red hair and great voice?

Love Emily Fitch for her red hair and great personality.

And for her beautiful girlfriend.
Naomi Campbell + Emily Fitch
(played by Lily Loveless and Kathryn Prescott)

Mon,
thank you for those late nights we watched Skins
instead of the long sleeps we should be having -
instead of doing pre/postlabs or reading readings
on the busy nights we shouldn't be sleeping.

Yes, I also think Emily is prettier than her evil twin, Katie.

Saturday

2010-07-18T10:52:00.005+08:00

Have you ever tried taking a self-portrait with a dSLR? No, not the one where you make use of a tripod, a clean wall and self-timer/remote. It's the one where you turn the camera shooting at you and click! There goes the shutter and once you're done, you'll feel the weight of the camera. Like this:

At Eastwood Mall last Thursday. Wow, I'm white.

Tell Me Something I Don't Know

2010-07-17T19:05:00.004+08:00

Well, there goes my weekend. Saturdays feel like weekdays because of NSTP. After the exhaustion from the insertion, you rest and eventually fall asleep. Next thing you know, it's already Sunday. It's time to move your ass and cram everything.

I have 11 Post-its of different colors and sizes sticking on my desk right now. They are filled with events, commissions, requirements, readings, tests and reminders scribbled on black marker ink. Deadlines in bold.

Don't get me wrong, though. I love my NSTP kids! There's this eight year old girl who is adorable to death. She's really white and her eyes are chinky. Her name is Bianca B. I forgot her last name but what's important is we have the same initials and my classmates say we could pass for sisters. Such a cute coincidence. Well, I have to go back to doing stuff that would have lists on my Post-its scratched out.

Who's The Other Guy That's Singing Van Halen

2010-07-16T09:04:00.003+08:00

I'm off again to another day full of overlapping events, designs to cram, files to arrange and tons to read. See you around school!

[1985]

Don't Call My Name

2010-07-11T10:07:00.005+08:00

I'm tired.
Don't mind the song, Alejandro.

Cold Cash

2010-07-07T21:13:00.004+08:00

... And Colder Hearts

Coffee still creating smokes and releasing heat, cool night wind brushing through your hair, charcoal pencils scattered on the table and free internet make up for the perfect time to work. Why didn't I think about this before my Heights interview? I think I did a pretty good job drawing Scarlett Johansson modeling Mango clothes. It's not done yet, though. I will finish it tomorrow. After I've sharpened my 4B. Most probably during SA. Haha! Speaking of which, I'm done with my SA paper on The Nanny Diaries! I think I did good on that one too (and finished it early too). Don't judge me! After recent weeks of stress and lack of proper sleep, I'm just glad I'm doing some things right. :) At least, this time, I'm not dumping the weight of my world on you. ;)

Misery

2010-07-05T20:32:00.003+08:00

I'm consumed by all the stress that I don't which errand to do first, which event to go to first, which class to study for first. (First means that I aim to accomplish everything.) I can't even have decent lunch! Today I had Kraft marshmallows in extra large and Chuckie chocolate drink. Healthy? No. This afternoon I had four events scheduled. With overlapping time frames. And it's just the Monday of the fourth week of school. FML, right? But that's not it. I still have stuff to worry about. Stuff that I need for tomorrow. I guess I won't be getting sleep tonight. Then there are muscle pains. Everywhere. I blame the volleyball training last Friday. I can't climb the stairs without my legs aching, nor laugh with my stomach and surrounding muscles hurting either.

And academic/extracurricular stress is not all I've been getting. Oh well, I better start on my Heights application piece soon.

P.S. Maroon 5's Misery music video is out. Smashing! Search it on YouTube, people. Hands All Over might be their last album. So sad, I know! But still, Song About Jane is the best.

BV #006

2010-07-04T15:19:00.004+08:00

Stress.

I just have so many things going on in my life right now that it makes my head spin towards another dimension. If you want to help me, you can start out by:

1. Smiling. When I see someone smile at me, it takes away a little bit of the weight.
2. Interpreting Baby by Justin Bieber. I need it for my Heights Art Staff application. I know it's a longshot but there's no harm in trying, right? Oops, there is 100 bucks worth of harm pala.
3. Reading Sotu Tutul Tud Bulul for me then transferring the knowledge to my brain. Long T'boli epic. Thick as a regular textbook.
4. Energy and sleep transfer. It's bad enough that I don't get enough sleep and rest. It's another thing to fall asleep in class for it.
5. Giving me my old seat in Ec 102 class in Bel 308. Yes you, jackass. If you haven't kicked Mon and me out of our chairs in the first row of the huge classroom, we wouldn't be sitting in the middle, distracted and playing with our iPods during class. We would've been listening and taking down notes.
6. Giving me money. I saved P800 this week, Monday to Friday. I checked my wallet this morning and saw 200 bucks. Story of my life, folks.
7. Cleaning up my side of the room. You know I live in the dorm. I try my best to clean up every time I can. But I keep on messing up every day.
8. Pain relievers. Last Friday's training was horrifying. Scary. Freakin' 0430-0900 training. After that, I went straight to the dorm, lied on my bed and fell asleep. Yes, I didn't get to eat dinner. Nor shower. Please don't judge me!
9. Helping me out on my applications. And org life. I really want to make it into the orgs I applied to. (some of which are Heights, CADs and Enta) And if I get in to all six orgs - YES, SIX - I hope I won't die from the busy-ness.

Sorry x9 for the ranting. :|

LSD

2010-06-21T16:34:00.001+08:00

Look for the girl with the broken smile. Ask her if she wants to stay a while.

Breathe

2010-06-11T02:44:00.002+08:00

So Seize that Someone to Surface

2010-06-10T16:16:00.005+08:00

Stuck at home aaaaallllll day. My head hurts like inside it there are a hundred bells ringing.

I have an external hard drive formatted for my Mac. I used it to store extra files cause the internal is full. To download more movies, more music and others, the internal must be emptied. I did. Then external crashed. It does not mount. Someone who owns something like this would most likely by crying. Who would not be sad to lose her files? My external is important. It contains at least three years of hard work - not just lots of movies and tons of music. I am afraid that the videos I edited and graphics I made were to be lost forever inside a defective external hard drive. A risk, it was, to store everything there. Ring! My head hurts. So we went to the store to have my external fixed. Their first idea was to replace the defective drive. But would mean that I will have to lose those files. That can not be. So they fixed it. And everybody is happy, especially me. :) Now I'm downloading Flashforward. Yay!

***

Hey, anagrams are getting old. Decipher this and I'll give you my whole week's allowance. ;)

Make. Seize. :)

Won't Go Home Without You

2010-06-07T19:44:00.002+08:00

It's not over tonight.
Just give me one more chance to make it right.
I may not make it through the night

Summer Ending

2010-06-01T00:14:00.002+08:00

You know, I dream
sometimes about flying.
It starts out like
I’m running really, really fast.
I’m like, superhuman.
And the terrain starts to get
really rocky and steep.
And then I’m running
so fast that my feet
aren’t even touching the ground.
And I’m floating, and it’s like
this amazing, amazing realness.
I’m free.
I’m safe.
Then I realize

I’m completely alone.
And then I wake up.

Blood Red Summer

2010-05-26T07:07:00.001+08:00

Greetings from NAIA Terminal 2!

Just some news for you. :)

Sometimes They Come Back

2010-05-23T10:06:00.003+08:00

People always leave // is just half a sentence.

Yes, they do. :)

With Or Without You

2010-05-22T16:07:00.001+08:00

Things change.

Summer Love

2010-05-15T23:45:00.003+08:00

Wednesday was great. Johnny Rockets, A Nightmare On Elm Street to Starbucks. Great. (Thank you, BTW) Watch A Nightmare On Elm Street in the theaters and you would wish you bought those The Last Song tickets instead. Even if that means a full length feat of Miley Cyrus. Oh no, Nightmare wasn't bad. It's just suspenseful. ;)

Thursday night was awesome, plain awesome. It was an adventure for me - the places, the friends, the new acquaintances, the things we did. I haven't had this much fun in a very long time. Spontaneous fun. It feels good. And it also feels good to know someone you want wants you back. :)

Friday night was not as lovely though. The greatest thing about that day was watching Turn Left, Turn Right for Chinese 1. If anyone has a copy of that, I would really appreciate you lending me. We didn't get to finish the movie.

And Saturday was just... full of work. Sanggu, Chinese and Psych have joined forces to ruin a Saturday and a Sunday. Weekends were created for rest. Imunnahsleeeeeeep. :(

Hallelujah

2010-05-08T11:41:00.002+08:00

I LOVE PSY 101 M. Thank you for the awesome production, guys. We did a great job considering we did everything in one week. Sold out!

As for the after-party... SAKIT NG ULO KO. YUN LANG.

***

Today I realized I'm a person who feels that what I do makes more sense when I do them for another person. Doing stuff for myself will not ever give me as much fulfillment as doing them for others.

And I don't only mean helping Philippine Cerebral Palsy, Inc.

What Happens When Conyo Meets JeJe?

2010-05-04T21:33:00.011+08:00

The Diary of an AjEjeNeAn centers on an Atenean Jejemon (thus, AjEjeNeAn) who proves that he can be himself - adding z's, w's and h's to his words and wearing loose jerseys, jeje cap and chain - even in a school where conyo people dominate. He strikes other Atenean jejemons who hide themselves as pretend-conyos with his courage and inspires them to finally reveal themselves. It takes one guy true to himself to make a difference in the social structure where pretending is their weapon.

The play is a production of section M of a Psy 101, General Psychology class this semester, with the guidance of Sir Nico Canoy. Proceeds will be for the benefit of the patients of the Philippine Cerebral Palsy, Inc. Know more about PCPI here. Show date is on May 7, Friday at 500 to 0600 PM in the Rizal Mini Theater inside the Ateneo de Manila University. For tickets, contact me at 09279467972. :)

Click here for other details. Cast includes: (click to zoom)

Prince Danieles as Vhradd Pitz (The true Jeje)
and Jerenz Gonzales as Angeli Jolina (Jeje girl turned Conyo turned Jeje),

Mico Clavano as May-o Neis (Antagonist Conyo)
and Kevin Acuna as Mariano Zawa (Antagonist Conyo sidekick),

May Vizmonte as May Vizmonte (Gayot antagonist Conyo girl),

and Polo Solidum as Bella Way (Gay Psy 101 professor).

100 Years

2010-05-03T23:35:00.001+08:00

In Eliazo 311, taken by Brooke last sem.

B

2010-05-01T22:28:00.004+08:00

'Cause life does not have a Breaking Free number for an ending ten out of ten times. It bites you in the ass and throws you an anvil almost every time you try to get out of quicksand.

And I chose to live this way. It's easier and much much simpler. :)

Hate (I Really Don't Like You)

2010-04-24T23:33:00.002+08:00

Love, love, love, love, love, love

Hate is a strong word but I really really really don't like you.

What's Somebody Like You Doing In A Place Like This?

2010-04-21T12:47:00.003+08:00

This free fall's, got me so

Kiss me all night don't ever let me go

I'll never be the same
If we ever meet again

Airplanes

2010-04-19T21:17:00.004+08:00

BV #005

2010-04-11T01:07:00.004+08:00

I'M LOSING MY TOUCH. I'M FUCKING LOSING MY FUCKING TOUCH. THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING. NOOO!

Sweetness

2010-04-06T22:37:00.002+08:00

I felt like a ten year old today. Almost the same old routine - Dad parked the car in the parking space near the food stall where Bai sells his delicious Bicolano food. Then off to walk to the Smart building in Ayala Avenue. After having the billing processed, we got the car and park in Greenbelt 5 (but of course, when I was ten, we parked in Glorietta 4 where a carpark exists), in Dad's favorite parking space near the escalators. Then we ate in Pepper Lunch and then walked around. Brent and I managed to take a tour around the new Powerbooks in Greenbelt. Dad then went to Ayala Tower One, the stock exchange building, and mom took me to The Ramp to get some clothes for the parties I'm going to. After all the fuss, we went to Starbucks in Glorietta 4 to meet up with Dad and Brent. We had snacks and coffee. We took a walk and Dad bought new sunglasses. After all the tiring walk, we went back to Greenbelt to have an early dinner at six o'clock. We got home at seven and now I'm eating the yummy cheese muffin I got for free from Asian Twist.

Pork And Beans

2010-04-06T00:57:00.003+08:00

It's been a week since vacation started and it's only a week 'til it ends. I spent the holidays with my family in Ortigas. And at home, all I've been doing is watching stuff off HBO, Star Movies, Star World and my favorite, Front Row. I've also been playing with the PS3 a lot. Tomorrow, I have to enlist for summer classes. I hope I get a good schedule and classes with non-Block F friends. Well, we get block enlistment all the time and summer sem's doesn't have that so it's a good time to bond with friends outside the block. But before going back to school, I still have parties and swimming dates to go to. I wish vacation was longer.

And oh, I was watching television earlier and a bar exam taker said she had to study at least ten hours a day for it. For how long? Five months. Yeahp, ten hours a day for five months.

I'll Be There For You

2010-04-02T00:41:00.003+08:00

The Last One was incredible. It is unbearable to see a group of people, who shared a decade of every day together, part ways. But it is really awesome to see a group of people, who dealt with a heap of trouble, last so long.

As of last night, I finished watching all ten seasons of Friends. :)

One Step Closer

2010-03-29T17:16:00.002+08:00

I NEVER WANT TO GO BACK TO THE DORM EVER AGAIN.

Kidding! Haha, no offense to my dorm friends. I love living in the dorm. BUT. BUT. BUT. We already have a PS3 and Rock Band 2 at home! SO COOL! Just let me get over the initial excitement. I am so far enjoying vacation. I have been going out everyday since Thursday and have seen How to Train Your Dragon twice. I'm set to see my high school friends, my modeling friends, stay in the hotel, go to Hong Kong and China this summer. It feels good not worrying about schoolwork or your grades. Well, I still don't have my final grades but it's not like there's something I can do about it. After two weeks, I'm off to summer sem. Hello, one and a half hours a class, three classes a day, five days a week, six weeks of summer! Oh god, my sarcasm can kill me.

And here's an update on the Friends count: season 9, episode 16!

BV #004

2010-03-24T12:47:00.002+08:00

I'm killing myself by studying for ES. Maybe now's a good time to call Hopeline? HUHUHU ONE MORE FINAL EXAM TO GOOO

No One Ever Told Me Life Was Gonna Be That Way

2010-03-18T15:16:00.003+08:00

Am I watching too much Friends? I'm on the fifth season in ten days. Yes, dumbass. Fifth in ten! I started to re-watch Friends recently because of all the stress from school. Actually, just math. Well, we all know that.

[I'll Be There For You]

Where Do We Go? Nobody Knows

2010-03-14T22:02:00.003+08:00

You know that feeling when you're sitting comfortably in the al fresco area of Starbucks Katipunan with a cup of iced caramel macchiato on the table, holding a 4B Staedtler pencil and Moleskine sketchbook but you can't really draw anything? It's a pencil. You can erase mistakes. You still can't lay the tip of your pencil on the smooth surfaced paper of that notebook.

You know that feeling when you're just hanging out with your friends, lying in bed, telling each other stories of mishaps and adventures when suddenly the NU 107 plays a song from 8 or 9 years back that then you thought was really cool but somehow in time forgotten to listen to it and never heard of it until NU 107 played it? You begin to wonder what happened, why you don't have an MP3 copy of that song in your iTunes.

You know that feeling you get when you look through your phone's contacts list and happen to pass by a name of a person you can really remember but don't have any communication with? You completely remember how he got introduced to you at that night when you were with your friends from high school but you can't actually bring yourself to even start a conversation with him that's embedded on satellite signals and mobile phones. You can bail anytime and you don't even have to see his face!

You know that feeling when you know you need to accomplish a lot of school work but you're sitting on brand new couch in the living room, in front of the huge screen of the television with Timmy Turner making a foolish wish, enjoying the hard work of the air conditioner, typing on the MacBook on your lap and trying to write a decent blog entry for once?

The last one's happening in case you didn't get the hint. What's with me? Maybe it's because I've been eating loads of sushi three days in a row? Nah.

[God Put A Smile Upon Your Face]

Lean On Me

2010-03-11T19:47:00.004+08:00

Mercedes Jones: You are not gonna slushie on my man Kurt.
Rachel Berry: Why wouldn't he? He's made his choice. He doesn't care about us losers anymore.
Finn Hudson: No, that's not true! It's just if I don't do it, the guys on the team are gonna kick the crap out of me!
Kurt Hummel: Well we can't have that, can we?
[grabs the slushie from Finn]
Finn Hudson: What are you doing?
Kurt Hummel: It's called taking one for the team.
[Splashes himself in the face with the slushie, and pauses]
Kurt Hummel: Now get out of here. And take some time to think whether or not any of your friends on the football team would have done that for you.

Photo from http://diamondnation.livejournal.com/67447.html

Make You Believe, Make You Forget

2010-03-06T00:16:00.005+08:00

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips

This is a really nice song to listen to when all the company you have is a completely remade and redone living room. I've been spending way too much time not going home to leave the room blue and come back yellow.

[Come On Get Higher]

My First Love Broke My Heart For the First Time

2010-03-04T11:51:00.002+08:00

I thought you'd always be mine.
This is me and Mon (Aniban)'s happy song right now. :)

Your Boyfriend Sucks

2010-03-01T21:36:00.005+08:00

When you expect something from someone, all you will get is disappointment.

*Title is only metaphorically connected to real life.

Discovery Is Not A Brand New Word

2010-02-28T12:37:00.003+08:00

Math 20 long test 5 on Tuesday! :|

Naked

2010-02-22T14:18:00.003+08:00

I keep my heart guarded most of the time. And there were days when I put down my walls.

What I didn't know was it would get broken that fast.